Doing It My Way.

I looked in the mirror and exhaled deeply.

It had taken me a long time to get to this point…blood, sweat and tears?

No, so much more than that.

I’d been beaten down, dragged through the mud and thrown into the fire, and that was just the start.

I made the classic mistakes of giving my heart to all the wrong people in all the wrong ways and every one of those broken roads cut me a little deeper and taught me a little more about who I was, where I’d been and what I wanted.

Sure, I hated having my heart broken time and again, but I would never change a thing about all the wrong turns I’d made.

They led me to exactly where I was meant to be…standing here, in front of the mirror, beginning to recognize a person I had lost a long time ago…me!

I thought by forging an identity in the people I loved and losing myself in them, I’d be happier and the love would be stronger, and it never was.

That’s not the way love works, I learned.

Real and lasting love doesn’t ask a person to change into something other than who they are, and I’ve finally started making my way back to myself, where I never should have left to begin with.

It’s been a long journey full of bumps and bruises, falls and failures, but I’m finally starting to recognize the person I’ve been trying to find and love for way too long.

Smiling, I pulled my hair back and swiveled my hips into a fun pose.

“Girl, you’ve been gone way too long! Let’s never do that again,” I laughed loudly and beamed.

Sometimes, you gotta go through the hard times, try to love the wrong people and learn the difficult lessons to find your way.

It’s been hard, it’s been painful, it’s been full of sadness, but it’s all been worth it.

I’m on my way home to better, stronger, happier version of myself, and it’s a great feeling.

I’m turning my pain into power, my struggles into my strength and most of all, my lessons into reasons, that deep down, I needed to turn my setback into my comeback…wiser, stronger and with a deeper love of myself than I’ve ever known.

I took one last look in the mirror, grinning broadly.

“I sure did miss you, girl. Let’s go remind them world why you’re amazing.”

And with a wink and a laugh, I kept moving forward on my journey…this time, I’m doing it my way.

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